Wednesday, August 6, 2014

When Silence Isn't Golden..

Have you ever had a moment that you knew in your SOUL that was life changing?

The past 5 days have been that way for me: 
I showed up at an open house interview at one of 2 Level 1 Trauma centers in my state. 
I was interviewed with 3 other candidates in what's called a panel interview. 
I left feeling happy that I went, and glad that I would never again go to an interview without knowing what to expect. 

Thursday, I received a phone call to be interviewed.. again. 
I went, explained all the reasons I'm awesome and left feeling happy that I had done everything that I could do.

I've only been out of school for 2 months, but the days have been long.  Every. Single. Day, I have looked at 7 hospital job pages and applied to Emergency and Labor and Delivery jobs. 
This process is brutal because they wait FOREVER before even calling to schedule an interview; if they call at all. 
I was struggling.  I was praying and applying and it felt like God was silent.  Like he was angry and I wasn't sure what I had done to deserve his anger.  I still applied and struggled daily because I was praying for the Right Job in the Right department.. ER or L&D

Then on Thursday, after checking every day, this listing came up for an open house for new grads. 
They were interviewing THAT DAY from 10-2 and I had to throw down the laptop and get dressed to make it.  
I was one of the last candidates to be interviewed. 
I left feeling satisfied and disconnected.  I didn't WANT it so I was happy that I went and gained experience. 

Then a recruiter called me back and offered me an interview with the ORTHO/Trauma floor. 
Wait, What?!
Suddenly, I wanted it... 

On the way to my 2nd interview the husband sent me this verse: 
"The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent"  - Exodus 14:14

I felt on the verge of tears.  
Maybe HE wasn't being silent, he was asking me to be. 

So I went, I interviewed and left with the understanding that I would hear something Friday or first thing Monday.

Friday-nothing. Monday came and went and-nothing. I suddenly wanted this position more than I could understand and waiting had made me more tightly strung than I have ever been.  But, I continued with the right job in the right department prayer... 

And today I received a formal offer for a full time- day shift position, right where God intended me to be. 

He made the way and had it wrapped up in less than a week.  I spent my whole Summer worrying if I would be able to spend it with my girls and he gave me that, and just when I thought I couldn't stand his silence a moment longer, he spoke and it was ME who needed to be silent all along. 

6 years, lots of sweat and tears later, and this girl got her degree, her license, and a career.  

I won't say that I will never doubt again, but I will surely remember this moment and be reminded that when my life is in chaos and I feel like he can't or won't hear me, he didn't need my interference in the first place!! 

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Happy One Year aversary!!

I just opened the browser and noticed that it has been exactly one year since I've updated this blog :)

The husband has been asking me if I was going to start it back up since right now I'm much less busy than I was even a month ago.  My days are spent studying to pass the boards and watching my munchkins grow.  And grow they have!! 

Kj is 3 now, Addis 6, and Olive just turned 9. 

So a few things: 

-I graduated.  Finally, after what must be some type of record I finally earned my BSN and in just a few weeks (after I take and hopefully pass the boards) I'll be licensed and everything!! 

-Olivia got braces.  She was very self conscious and we felt it would be the best thing.  It has made a world of difference.  

-We made it through K2, Kindergarten, and 3rd grade. We're moving on up and we're very happy about that. 

-Addis started horse back riding and she's actually liking it.  It's helping her to focus and she needs help in that department. 

-Kj is a ball of energy that will hopefully be participating in a sport very soon.  She run from the time her feet hit the floor until she passes out at night.  She is so smart and funny, but she is equally exhausting!! 

I'm learning what it means to be patient and trust in God's timing.  I'm anxious to get my appointment to test for the boards so I can get a job and feel like the past 6 years have been worth it.  I am at the mercy of so many other people sometimes I want to pull my hair out from frustration.  But I'm trying to constantly remind myself and pray that I can just be patient and trust that my job is out there, and God is going to lead me to the hospital and department he decided for me long ago. 

Until next time, Christina :)

Monday, June 17, 2013

Summer Vacation: Week 2

Week 2 of Summer Vacation!! I am not surprised to find the days flying by, and myself wondering on Friday's where the week went.  

Monday we did a lot of catching up.  Because we love spending time with the husband, not a lot gets done on the weekends, like grocery shopping etc. 

Tuesday was bird feeder day!! We followed this tutorial.  Lots of fun to make, but they did not hold up well when we tried to hang them from the trees. 

Next, we decided to try to plant the bulbs that we found at Walmart for $3.  It was a success.  I gave them each their own biodegradable pot, some soil and we planted some fragrant lillies, hoping we can add them to our flower bed next Spring. 

Thursday is Summer Reading Program.  I take all of my girls to the library, and Olivia participates in the craft, while Addison and Kinley read, color, do puzzles, etc. 

Here is Adis and Kj with Paiges the Turtle, this is their favorite part!! 

After our story time we went for a little froyo on such a hot day.  We were heading to pick up our daddy!! 

On Friday we went with the husband to finally cash in his Skydiving Gift Certificate!! We bought this for him for Father's Day/Birthday combo, 2 years ago!! 

We had to leave the house by 6 am to get there on time, so I had some snoozing babies in the car.

We had a LONG wait so we did what all girls do.. we caught frogs :) We literally spent 8 hours at this sky diving center, and by the end I was asking myself why I agreed to sit that long with 3 active girls.  But, after the husband came back from the jump I knew we had made the right decision. 

Grandpa you can watch the jump video here:

On Saturday we celebrated Olivia's 8th birthday.  I cannot believe this girl is 8!!!! She wanted her birthday at a skating rink, and I can say without a doubt that it was the best money we have ever spent.  She said over and over again "This is the best day of my life!!" 

And then of course Father's day!! We gave our daddy some cologne and cute movie basket, but we didn't take any pictures because somehow I think the husband would not appreciate the "first thing waking up photo ops" :)

We made these for our Pawpaw and Pawpaw D!! 

And after considerable drying time, I think about 4 days, we decided to hang our bird feeders, they fell apart the moment we hung them.  I have no idea what went wrong... 

Week 2 was a success, the husband even said that this was one of the best weekends of his life.  I guess this girl can give herself a pat on the back!! :)

Love to you all!! 

Monday, June 10, 2013

Summer Vacation: Week One

I vowed that this Summer would be a great one, afterall I have spent the last 8 months looking forward to this time where there would be no homework, testing, or reading that I haven't chosen :)

So I looked over Pinterest and found some cool ideas to keep us busy..

Monday-Olivia received this garden stone kit for her birthday 2 years ago, and since we've recently cleared out our flower beds I though this would be a perfect time to make them.  

A few tips: 
1. They are not as large as you would imagine a garden stone to be.  I had planned to use these as stepping stones between our walkway and driveway, but they will be used for decoration now. 
2. You do not need to use all of the concrete when you mix it.  If you use all the concrete and the small amount of water they recommend it will dry too quickly and decorating/molding will be next to impossible.

Tuesday we took advantadge of our Mimi's pool.  This is the first Summer I have been confident enough to take them all by myself and it's was fantastic.  I barely got any photos of Olivia because she is constantly swimming.  Addison was content making friends and floating along, while Kj enjoyed the small kiddie area.  The weather was perfect for a swim and picnic lunch!!

Wednesday we did some thrifting.  We have several thrift stores around that I like to visit looking for furniture. 

Thursday was riding lessons for Olivia.
Addison felt her puppy should be super safe on the way to pick up Sister. 
*On a side note: Addison has slept with this puppy every night since she was about 9 months  old.  He has seen better days, but I wonder how much longer she will keep him.  The thought makes me super sad!! 

We decided to try this. We used 80's glam sharpies that the husband bought me (I LOVE the 80's) and made plates for each little lady.  We followed the directions exactly, but the colors dulled A LOT in the oven.  Perhaps that's why they only show black sharpies in the tutorials?  

Friday we spent some time just out and about.  We got to see this awesome Rainbow!! 

And my hydrangea bush is finally blooming.  We've gotten sort of big into plants here so we were excited to bring this bloom into the house and see what happens. 

Deal of the week: I've been looking at bird baths for our flower beds.  The standard ones are not expensive, but I needed a tall one for the space I had in mind.  Well, the husband and I popped into Walmart to buy some spray paint.  He happened to notice this fountain/bird bath on the patio of the garden section.  It has a small hole in the front because it's been out there for a while.  The previous owners brought it back because the pump didn't work.
Well the manager sold it to us for... $20!! So we brought it home, set it up, and guess what? The pump DOES work, the previous owners put the pump in backwards :)

Side note: We bought a new car about 2 months ago.  We went from a Yukon XL to a Honda Civic.  We OFTEN forget that we no longer have the Yukon.  Prime example here: We bought this antique end table and couldn't get it home any other way :)  I have plans to stain and nourish this table back to some serious glory.  

So that's week one.  This week we plan to: make some bird feeders, plants some flowers/strawberry plants, visit the zoo, and plan for Olivia's birthday!! 

Love to you all!! 

Monday, May 27, 2013

A Labor of Love

The past 3 months my girls and I have been doing the day to day without the husband since he was working out of town.  School was winding down, finals just around the corner, and my very first research paper due within days.

I just finished the semester about a week ago, and after a solid 8 months of full-time school, I had to take a breathe and survey the damage.  Seriously, I looked around my house and noticed my floors that had not been mopped (for real mopped) since before I went to school.  Sure, I've swept and spot mopped, but had not broken out the swiffer in months.  My poor, poor stove was neglected almost beyond repair.  I may, or may not have placed a Zaxby's tray over my little messy stove for a certain 5 year old's birthday party because it was the LAST Thing I had to do... 

So the husband, girls and I took this weekend to finally finish a project that began more than a year ago.  

This is the stock photo of our house when I found it on the internet: Please notice the big ol' green bushes.  I loathe these bushes, hate is not a strong enough word.  Well, the husband and I removed them... WAY before we understood the enormity of this job, or before we knew what we wanted to do with the areas. 

Because we did not know what we wanted to do with it, and these bushes are like a virus, the once clear and clean space became this: Again, don't judge, remember I had ZERO time to do anything non-school related!! 

So we did what any responsible person would do.. we paid someone to come and cut all of those viruses flush with the ground.  Talk about expensive, but after this weekend, I know in my soul that it was worth every penny :) 

So here are the before photos of what the area looked like after the yard men cleaned up the area: I did save my hydrangea bush and one small little green bush that I have vowed not to hate.  

So we spent the weekend removing the top layer of grass, so that the soil underneath could be broken up, turned over, and mixed with soil so that actual plants, beautiful, clean plants could replace the viruses  
The husband removed all of the stumps from the bushes and bless that man, they were a major pain in the tush!! Because the bushes are viruses, their roots run deep and wide.
We planted Monkey Grass, although Nugget girl said "Can we get some Unicorn grass instead?"
Planted new plants 
Covered the entire area in mulch.

I am so crazy proud of this area now!! It look soooooo much better :)

And just for you Grandma and Grandpa!! 

Love to you all!!