Sunday, December 26, 2010

Merry Christmas 2010

Merry Christmas!!

Here is the night before Christmas Eve... the Nugget didn't even make it to teeth brushing :)


On Christmas Eve my entire family from my mom's side gets together.  Each of us bring dishes, we eat together and then exchange presents for the kiddos.  My Nanny came over early to help because I have been put on bed rest.. you know how things like that go when you have 2 children :)  Here are my two sweet ladies helping with the food: 



 Here is Nugget girl opening presents 


 And Sugar Mama.  She got a DS Lite from Mimi and she thought that was the greatest thing!!   She had not even asked Santa for one :)


I must admit that when it comes to things like Christmas morning I am not good with taking pictures.  I want to but I feel like if I look at everything through the lens of my camera I'm actually missing what's going on.   Here are the few that I got...

The Hubs' parents came over to see what Santa brought.. Nugget girl woke up first at not even 7 a.m. and I was worried that his parents would miss it so we let her look in her stocking until they arrived.  Sugar Mama woke up around 7:30 a.m. and the first thing she said "Mama Santa did come and he brought presents!! I've been waiting forever for this" :)






This picture is the hubs and his parents taking the girls outside to see their playground.  My husband stayed up all night putting it together and only got about 1/2 way done.  They are not kidding when they tell you it will take you all day.  I love him so much for trying and felt so bad when I saw how incredibly tired he was the next day!!  They are thrilled and cannot wait for it to be finished!!

Last but not least Sugar Mama asked Santa for make-up for Christmas.  Santa would not be crazy enough to bring her real make-up but we decided that some "play" make up would be fine... after all we supervise her.  Anyways after we opened all the pieces she sneaked off to the bathroom to apply some, with permission of course.  After about 15 minutes I asked the hubs to check on her while I made breakfast to ensure, and I quote "that she doesn't come out looking like a circus clown"... my oh my...


The pink around her eyes is unbelievable!! She looks like the 80's cartoon Jem... google her and you will see :)

I am so Thankful for: 

My girls had an amazing Christmas.  It was in large part to their wonderful family that goes out of their way to provide magical moments for them.  Mimi/Mimi D always know exactly what to get to make them squeal with delight, aunts/uncles/additional (great) grand parents literally give them their hearts desire.  The Hubs and I are almost not even needed :)  In fact I have opened so many boxes the past 2 days, that if I don't have to for a looooooong time, it will be entirely too soon!!

Love to you all and I hope you had an even more blessed Christmas than we did at Lively Situation!!

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Christmas To All...

In a stable.. no place for his head, Mary gave birth to a living breath Savior more than 2,000 years ago.

She swaddled him, placed him in a manger, loved and cared for him.  The Wise Men sought him, Shepard's, animals, rejoiced at his arrival.

I hope as we sit and wrap presents, think of our loved ones, bake cookies for Santa that we remember the true reason for the season.  It's a wonderful time of year and the presents are so much fun, don't get me wrong, but my prayer for you is that you find the ultimate gift given so many years ago.

Merry Christmas to all of you!!

Love,
Lively Situation!!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Enough Belly To Go Around..

As promised here are the belly pictures.  They were taken at exactly 34 weeks :)



The Nugget is always asking if baby sister is coming out :)



I feel like the baby bump has taken on a life of it's own, but I am so in love with it :)


On a side note: I'm officially on bed rest for the 3rd time in my pregnant history. :(  
I was hoping to make it all the way through normally, but all of a sudden my blood pressure has decided to do wonky things.  It wasn't a problem until yesterday when it spiked causing dots and a big ol' headache!! I'm waiting on my test results now to figure out what to do from here.


Today I am Thankful for: 


All of the sweet wonderful ladies in my life.  I love them all very much!!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Meeting Somewhere In the Middle...


I've been meaning to share this picture with all of you for a couple of weeks now, but never got around to actually taking the picture until today.

Look at my laces... they are literally tied in the middle because I can barely get them that way let alone where they are meant to be :)  My stomach gets in the way.  Of course I will ask you to pay absolutely no attention to the fact that my calf runs straight into my foot, with no hint of a break for my ankles.. we call them cankles :)

I can still see my feet, well the top half anyways, but reaching them to put lotion on, shave them, tie my shoes, etc., is a serious ordeal.  And I still have over 6 weeks to go!!

I don't have a good belly picture... I mean I have some in my pajamas where it looks like I stuck a basketball under my shirt, but I'll save you and me the embarrassment.  So once I get one where I'm in my great maternity sweater and my hair looks fabulous I'll post it.  I just recently bought actual maternity clothes.  I made it to about 32 weeks before I could not wear regular clothes anymore... well without the mid-driff showing.  One of those shirts is my fabulous maternity sweater that will be showcasing a rather large belly as soon as possible. 

 I have gained about 15 pounds and surprisingly enough that has been all belly.  Mostly everything else has gotten smaller, or perhaps it's the optical illusion created by the enormous belly.  I passed my glucose test (yay) which was super.  I did not have diabetes with Sugar Mama, but did with the Nugget for about a week :)

Things I crave: Steak (Outback or Longhorn's), potatoes (the form does not matter, mashed, baked, whatev), cereal (the good kind, not the healthy kind :) and as with everything else in life: CHOCOLATE!!

We're getting down to the wire and that's scary/exciting!!  I have never been pregnant for longer than 36 weeks... I have a serious goal of making it to my due date, which has always been my goal, but I'm able to stick to it a  little better because it's so cold outside I'm not outside nesting, or shopping for nesting :)  I am however dilated a finger tip, a "little" effaced, and she is head down.  That could mean nothing, but for now I'm drinking tons of water and lying down as much as possible.  She's hanging in there :)

Today I am Thankful for: 

My therapeutic cries... I have those sometimes and as much as I feel like my plate is full, it is so cleansing to just let it all go.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

To Walk In Someone Else's shoes...


Here is Nugget girl walking in Daddy's work boots :)

One of the greatest things about God's word is that, within, lies many parables that direct us in almost any situation in our lives.  Faced with uncertainty?  Faith the size of a grain of a mustard seed.  The grass seem greener on the other side? Look at the lost son.

It's even stated that we won't go through something that he hasn't been through already... 

As we walk through the bible.. we're walking in his shoes... but essentially it was he who walked through ours.. because what applied then, certainly applies now.

Have you ever been...

At McDonald's.. frustrated because your order is taking forever and when you finally get it, four days later, it's Wrong?!?  Consider that the girl who is taking your order has just found out she's pregnant.... she is afraid of losing the one job she could get in a terrible economy, one she wouldn't have considered months ago, but must have to survive.  She's training and is charged actual money from her paycheck, every time she has to make a correction on your order.

At a red light, behind a person who isn't doing anything near the speed limit... you are running late and need to get somewhere quickly, but can't get around this person?  Consider that the man who can't focus on the speed limit has just found out the love of his life has got months to live... if that.. her body will fail her, and he will watch her deteriorate and become a shell of the person he knows and loves.

Lastly, the woman who stands in line at the grocery store.  She is unfocused, her kids are screaming, and you are irritated at the lack of discipline.  Consider that she's stressed out because while her cart isn't close to full, she's unsure of how she will pay for what she does have... Christmas is around the corner, and she can barely afford to pay for the dinner her children will eat.

The shoes of the people around us don't necessarily fit us in reality, but in spirit and truth we wear the same size, all walking toward the same destination.  I hope during this season we are reminded that once there was a young girl, unmarried, and pregnant.  Matthew, Mark, Luke and John allow us to walk in her shoes... where she has no bed for her baby, is afraid of what will happen when her peers/community finds she is unwed and pregnant.... with the savior.  We walk with her as we find out that her son, her baby, the one she nurtured in her womb would fill shoes that defy this world.  We are never sure what others are going through, but we can be sure we all want the same things.

Today I am Thankful for: 

My shoes... I'm happy with where they have taken me, and continued to take me.  Also for the opportunity to take a peek into the journey of others, thank goodness we all have a road map!!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Another One Gained...

On my way home today, with my sweet family, Sugar Mama asked me a question.

"Mama, what happens to a person who doesn't have Jesus living in their hearts?"

I wasn't sure exactly what she was asking.. Did she want to know what that type of person was like to the outside world, did she want to know if God let bad things happen to those people, or did she want to know the difference between heaven and hell?

I proceeded to tell her about the ways God changes us when he is invited to live in us.  We are thankful, kind, generous, gracious, etc.  The hubs interjected with "And if they ask Jesus to come and live in their hearts they can go to heaven"...

This was a concept she understands because she knows some people who have gone to live in heaven, and be alive with Jesus.  So I told her that only those who have asked Jesus to live in their heart can go to heaven.  I also asked her if she had ever asked Jesus to come and live in her heart..

She answered yes... and I asked her when and she said "When I was a baby"... I took this as a compliment because she has always been in church and had a relationship with God that she has never understood anything different :)  I told her my own salvation story and left it at that.  

Tonight as we said our prayers she said: 

"Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep.  I pray for God and Jesus to come and live in my heart"

Today this is what I am thankful for...

I'm pretty sure that counts as my five year old asking to be saved... :)

Another one has been gained, forgiven, and redeemed.  I hope you follow her big example!!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

A Little Humility...

Today was the last day of the semester.  Only finals left and then I'm done (for a month)  :)

The Hubs and girls took me to school and went to our mall to ride the carousel.  Who should be making an appearance, but Santa himself :)
Last year the Nugget did not enjoy our visit with him, so I just assumed this year would not be different.. apparently she surprised everyone.

This is Sugar Mama trying to catch a glimpse of Santa from the Upper Level :)  The Hubs texted me this picture and it made me laugh out loud.


They both sat on his lap and told him what they wanted for Christmas: 
Sugar Mama: make up (sigh)
Nugget: a baby doll :)

On another note, I've mentioned before that I have had a rather hard time adjusting to Sugar Mama being in kindergarten.  Her teacher and I do not mesh well together and I've attempted to over come it, that gets harder by the day.  I feel as though I've written note, after note, just trying to understand her "notes".  For instance when I asked about her progress weeks ago at conference and what I could do to ensure Sugar Mama's success, I got "Do the things I send home for homework and her target skill and she will continue to do fine."  We do something everyday, and she does great with me at home.  This week I've been getting "having trouble completing work notes"... okay Is she running out of time,  having trouble understanding, or talking and not staying on task?!?  I need to know these things!!! She gets all S's on her progress report, and yet if she is having trouble, enough for her to tell me when she gets in the car, why are you not telling me what the problem is?  I have voiced the concern more than once that perhaps Sugar Mama is intimidated by her teacher and shuts down... because when she is with me she does fine... it has been the complete opposite for her five years of life :)  Her struggles make me feel like I've failed her, not adequately prepared her for school, but I see all of her progress and the things she's learned.. I stay confused.

Are you experiencing anything like this?  Or am I making excuses?

Today I am Thankful for: 

My family.. My girls have been so good for the past 2 days and my husband has made such an effort to make me rest and take breaks that I know I am so fortunate to have all of them.  I love them more than life itself!!

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Lively Situation is being controlled by a two year old...

I am 31 weeks and 3 days pregnant.  This is not the thing that controls my life right now.  It's a two year old nugget, who apparently has discovered she is two and should act accordingly by being a terrible two.

First let me ask you... If you have a child who is 2 1/2 or older, do you still have nap time?
I ask because recently it's been a struggle for us.  
I did sleep training, I've mentioned this before, and it was a very difficult time for me.  But it was a last resort as Nugget girl wouldn't sleep in her bed, or in mine, or really for any stretch of time, and so I tried it.  It worked for us, not instantly, but after much dedication and quite simply it was the thing that saved my sanity :)
Recently nugget girl has started pitching fits at nap time and bed time, and it takes me back to sleep training and now that she's older makes it even harder than when she was smaller.
Just yesterday she came out of her and Sugar Mama's room crying at nap time, and said "Mama I ready to talk", which is what she says when she is ready to come out of time out.
This made me feel terrible.
I only make her sleep because Nugget girl with no sleep does not make for a pleasant situation, but I don't want her to think that lying her down for a nap is punishment.
I decided to change the game today and not make her take a nap.. of course she fell asleep in the car after dance and slept until three this afternoon :/

Also she has started with "Uh Uh" and "I don't want to"... normally it's just a conversation but when you are calling her to you to change her diaper, even though you have attempted to potty train her 47 times, and she says "Uh uh, I don't want to" (that's right she throws out the combo too :) it makes me a little crazy.  Or when I'm trying to brush her teeth and I get "I don't want to" when I ask her to open her mouth... 

If I had thousands of followers, some of the blog readers would be amped up to post a comment about how I should man up and deal with being a parent, how I should be thanking God daily that he gave me a healthy baby girl, any number of things that I assure you I think to myself, I just want to be in a place where she doesn't think I'm always getting on to her.

My hormones are bonkers, I am obligated to a many number of things over the next week, and I can't reach my feet... right now I'm being controlled by my two year old...

Today I am Thankful for: 

My two year old, who drives me to the brink of a nervous break down everyday, and yet I love her to distraction and thank God for giving her just to me!!

P.S. the hubs ordered something that had baby girl number 3's name on it.  Seeing it in print (just like Kelly) made me very happy, and makes it VERY real :)

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Decorating For Christmas...

I hope you all had a wonderfully full Thanksgiving.  Both in family and food.  I like to decorate for Christmas just as soon as Thanksgiving recovery is complete :)  We went and bought our Christmas tree on Friday and came home to decorate the rest of the house.

This is the Living Room: Before


Here are Sugar Mama and the Nugget decorating their trees.



Here is our mantle.  This is the first year I have ever had an actual mantle to hang my stockings and the hubs doesn't necessarily like it because he says I'm going to catch the stockings on fire :)


This is our tree... looking at it from here, it appears it's leaning.  Or is that just me?


My nanny, some years ago, started giving me pieces to create a Christmas village.  I've gotten several more since then and here it is this year.  It fills the bakers rack, and it gets harder and harder to find a single place to put it :)


I hope you all have as much fun decorating for Christmas as we do.  If you would like to share, I would love to see your decorations.

Today I am Thankful for: 

The CHRIST in Christmas.  I hope that we all remember to stop and think about the true reason for the season.  The king left his throne to share a manger in a town with no place for a king.  He came as a babe to grow and take the sins of the world, gave his heaven to us when we had done nothing to deserve it.  That is an amazing gift. 

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Babysitters...

Last night the hubs and I had an impromptu date.  My dad was coming to get our girls for an hour or so, and take them to feed the ducks.  The hubs said "Oh yeah, come on babe let's go see a movie".. the grandparents were all for the extra time :)

After our movie, I called to tell them we were on our way, where my dad says "Okay well Nugget is naked because she bathed in her chocolate ice cream".. hahaha she does wear what she eats, but why is she eating chocolate ice cream at 9:00 at night? The joys of being a grandparent :)

We talked for a few minutes and Nugget came to me and asked me to change her diaper.. An irritating request as you can imagine, since she can say "Mommy change ah my diaper" versus "Mommy I need to go potty".. I digress, as it turns out my dad. or a mysterious diaper changer, forgot to put the tape down on one side and the Nugget was soaked... her diaper bag did not have any more diapers in it.  Don't forget I said impromptu..

So we went green, or old school, whichever you prefer, and a whole lot of south on you.  We, and by we, I mean the grandparents fashioned a "cloth" diaper from a towel, and some duck tape.  

This is the fruits of that labor.. I laughed until it hurt :)


But the most important part... they were fast asleep before we got home.  And since they've decided to start sharing a bed, I thought I would share with you the sweetness of that moment :)


Today I am Thankful for: 

1. My two sweet girls, and the grandparents who wore them out.
2. The dates I share with my handsome man.
3. The break from school/work this week.  The time we are able to spend together is so wonderful!!
4. And lastly for the moments I'll share with my family on Thursday... some will be missed, other's remembered, but it'll be a moment God gave us to reflect on the blessing he has bestowed when he's already given the best one.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Show Us Your Life: Playrooms...

This post is a long time coming because after we painted I never posted the pictures :)

This is the view from the stairs leading to the playroom. This space houses our train table, which gets taken apart more than anything, and the trampoline..


Wider View..


This is our dress up corner.  The dress up trunk houses all of our accessories: crowns, shoes, etc.  The white bucket contains all Disney princess costumes ever made plus fairies, cheerleaders, etc.  And how can you dress up and not see your self? Mirror, Mirror on the wall...


The baby corner.. we take care of our babies and pets in this area.


Dramatic play.. babies, kitchens (two one for each lady :)


Doll houses.. One that houses barbie and one that houses puzzles, games, etc.  And the table Mama J (Mimi) bought this for us to use for writing, coloring, etc.


Lounging area.. I love this couch, it pulls out to make a little bed, but it stays dirty and can't really be cleaned. The tent was a present from Santa last year and stays in the playroom because we don't have enough room any where else :)


Entertainment center... t.v., karaoke machine, and musical instruments... it gets a little noisy :)


Today was Sugar Mama's Thanksgiving feast at school.  Here she is dressed in her Native American gear.  Her vest reads "Smiles A Lot" on the back.. this is her Native American name :)


And this displays how we use our playroom the most.. dress up :)  Which is why we have dedicated an entire corner to it!!


Today I am Thankful for: 

Visiting with my baby girl at school.. what a treat to see how your child survives the day without you :)  And for the quiet in my house right now.  The hubs and Nugget are at the in-laws fixing an electrical problem, Sugar Mama is at school, so it's just me and Dooley.  I should be studying, instead I'm lying in my bed doing nothing, and it feels good :)

Monday, November 15, 2010

All In A Day..

There are some of you who read this blog who do not know me if real life. So you don't see all the crazy.. only the totally on point awesomeness that I display for you to see :) But to state the obvious I struggle everyday... not with a particular thing, but just knowing that I'm taking really good care of my children.. that I am preparing them for life adequately. So here are a few things I'd like to share about the past couple of days.

Sugar Mama is 5... this is her first year of school and we've had to make a lot of adjustments. I'm learning to deal with what it's like to have someone not be in love with my child, while admitting that she does have some flaws... mini, tiny, hard to see flaws, but they are there :) So in an effort to help her understand the responsibility of being 5 we've started our responsibility chart. There are a lot of things to choose from on this chart we've chosen 4.
1. This white rectangle represents: Get out of bed... Sugar Mama takes forever to get out of bed. With this she must get out of bed no more than 5 minutes after I know she's awake.
2. Get Dressed: This isn't complicated.. just put on the clothes I've set out for her.
3. Do Homework.. with no whining. She's great at homework, not so much at the no whining.
4. Take a bath.

So for every smiley face she receives one quarter... if she whines at all during the day she loses all of the quarters she's earned.. but if no whining and she completes she gets a whopping $5!!


Another life lesson: Give to God what is his, and save, save, save!! So we made jars. Not an original idea, but cute still. She does 10, 10, 80. 10% to both Tithes and Savings and 80% to her jar, which she can do whatever she wants with (with in reason :)


This past weekend we had cheer leading competition. This is Sugar Mama's favorite part. In fact half way through the regular season she gets frustrated with games, because she only wants to do competition :)


Riding in the Limo :)





They didn't even place... that's a story for a different post, but she was so gracious about it that we were proud of what a great sport she was :) Now the season is over, and we can prepare in earnest for this baby, which will hopefully arrive no sooner than 11 weeks from now (fingers crossed). Lots and Lots to do :)

Today I am Thankful for:

Stolen Moments from the weekend. It's so nice to be in the moment and realize that they are the moments that truly matter, the rest is just background noise :)

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Moving into Fall..

It's November 2nd and it feels like the first day of fall finally. In fact we forgot our jackets for dance this morning and paid a chilly price :)

It's been really busy in our house the past 3 - 4 months. I feel like my days are measured by when I have to leave... as a result my poor girls are pooped out at the end of the day...


This weekend we went trick-or-treating, and here are the Nugget and Sugar Mama in their costumes...

The Nugget's Tinkerbell..


Sugar Mama's Tinkerbell...


And our entire trick-or-treating crew...
(L - R)
Nugget Girl, Lala (Alice), M & M (baby elephant), Bigi (Pirate), Jake (Werewolf), and Sugar Mama


Halloween would have been my Uncle Scott's 45th birthday. In honor we all sent him balloons. Happy Birthday Uncle Scott, you are missed!! I hope you enjoyed your balloons.
P.S. they stayed together until we couldn't see them anymore, and even formed an S... I promise.. :) It's was God's way of letting us know he got them :)


This was a sad weekend for our family. We missed Uncle Scott a lot and even went as an entire family to visit his grave. It was a hard trip to take.

If you are like me, when your children have a birthday you remember that day. Where you were, what happened, the moment your child entered the world. I wondered all day, but didn't have the courage to ask, if my nanny was remembering... and hurting because she did remember. I don't imagine the memories leave, perhaps fade with time, but still there whenever we choose to recall them. My heart hurts for her.

I've also heard it said that when people die they don't remember us here. They aren't looking down on us because there is no sorrow or hurt there... that's biblical.
But here is the deal, there are times when a hurt is so strong, a question so plaguing, the why just too much not to have answered that God gives me exactly what I need to quiet that storm. My uncle Scott might not know that we were hurting as we remembered him on Sunday, but I believe with all the spirit God has placed in me, that included in the comfort he sends in times of great sorrow he also gives our loved ones the little things they need too. He got those balloons, and he knows we love him, yesterday, today and tomorrow.

Today I am Thankful for:

My baby girls joy over sharing a room. It started out joyful, took a rather dramatic turn, and came back to peace over sharing the same room. They are so sweet as they pray together, lie down together, etc. and I am thankful God saw fit to make them so wonderful, and that he reminds me how wonderful he made them when they are driving me to the edge of my patience :)

Thursday, October 28, 2010

My Husband Is a Genius..

I mean that with no hint of sarcasm :)

I've posted previously about the stress I have concerning preparing for this new baby.
1. I needed to move Nugget girl to a "big girl" toddler bed. (check)
2. Combine Sugar Mama and Nugget Girl's rooms... I had a hard time with this because I needed to find a twin or 2 twin beds. I was going to go with one twin bed for now since we just moved Nugget girl out of the crib, it didn't seem fair to move her straight into another bed. So last night we have conversation number 4, 286 about how we're going to do it, with enough time to let them adjust and still prepare for the baby.

Let me back up a little. I've noticed over the past week or so that Nugget girl must do and/or say anything that Sugar Mama does. For instance, last night Nugget girl saw me going into Sugar Mama's room. She thought we were letting her stay up. When going to bed she pitched a nasty fit, screaming and crying. It took me back to sleep training, her response was never like that, but it's what I felt like with the crying. Daddy went into save the day.
Nugget girl says "mommy all gone, take earrings".. about a month back she broke her earrings. I haven't found anymore yet because her ears are very sensitive and break out easily.
Sugar Mama started wearing different earrings this week... Nugget must wear new earrings also.

So back to conversation 4, 286.. the hubs said maybe we should just put them in the same room so Nugget understands Sugar Mama is going to sleep too. This sounded wonderful, but I still had not solved the bed issue.
The hubs says "Why don't we just keep Sugar Mama's bed as it is now, turn it like we would have the twin bed, and put Nugget's toddler bed in there too?"

Hello, almost college educated and it never occurred to me. DUH! So this morning as we were getting ready for school he moved the furniture around and the girls were thrilled.

Side Note: I love how it is, but their bedding does not match and it looks a little cluttered, this is not my favorite :) It's the OCD.. don't start to want to poke me with a stick when I've finally found a solution, I'm just letting you know when I show you pictures later, that more work has to be done :)

So I worried about how nap time would go and I project my worries onto my children. I thought Nugget girl would be thrown for a loop, turns out she adjusts much better than I do.
I put her in "their" room and she did great. Sugar Mama is already asking if they can share a bed. God is good, all the time. He always finds a way and shows us when it's time that works best for everyone.

I shouldn't worry so much, that's a given, but when I do God gave me a great husband that sees the trees through the forest.

Today I am Thankful for:

My husband: he is amazing, brilliant, generous, everything I should have wanted in a husband, and was to naive to want, but blessed enough to receive :)

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Be Relevant...

This is the one place that is mine. My words are typed in this box, and some day I hope to reflect back on them with laughter and joy because those times are behind me, replaced by new and refreshing chaos. I am uninterrupted here, no one calling "Mommy" or attempting to understand what it is I am trying to say... just me and how I feel, and how those feelings relate to my life.

So here comes some honesty: I'm barely here... I have never experienced this level of irritation and frustration on daily basis in my entire adult life. After talking about stress, I prayed about it and left it behind. It knocked, rang the door bell, lingered on my porch and visits me daily. Sometimes at 1:30 a.m. when I can better spend the time sleeping... either way I'm barely here, and the barely is irritated and frustrated.

I'm going to blame it on the hormones :) and assure myself that in a couple of months I will be back to normal. See, doesn't that feel better?

So I'm barely here... I'm sharing pictures of my family, our new baby in utero, everything but what I intended this blog to be. So let's start over.
I'm Lively Situation
I'm a follower of Jesus Christ
I have a great family, a husband, 2 1/4 daughters, and one neurotic bulldog
This place is mine, to stand, and share.. let's do that.

I need to be relevant. I struggle with sharing my faith because it's a little hard to do from my home. My interaction with adults is either at school where I sit in lecture or lab, or at church where we're all sharing our faith. I read something today in the back of my bible that struck home for me. For the 17 of you who read this blog, I won't see you everyday. I can barely scrape the time and effort together to blog once a week now (which is a big source of guilt), so I won't share with you everyday, but I will share my faith, my story, my God with my children.. everyday. In my actions, my words, my works, my love, the list goes on and on.

Deuteronomy 6: 5 - 6
Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children.

I won't share with you everyday, but he that lives in me will be seen here, when I make it :) but the peace I get from knowing that he will be shining from my heart to the hearts of the three wonderful little girls he's given me is enough to make up for the guilt.

I'm relevant... to Sugar Mama, Nugget Girl, and Tater Tot... For now it has to be enough.

So here is my first step.. to being here again.

Today I am Thankful for:

A place... not just any place, but this place. Where his love grows, and is shared, one heart at a time

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Pickles...

That's not a particular craving, but I've eaten one almost every day of the week with a sandwich :)

I've been absent for longer than intended again, and not because I have a shortage of things to write about, but because I feel like everything continues to spin out of my control. Blogging in the last on the list. Although I should put my thoughts here to give me an outlet to the stress I insist on inviting in my life. The stress and I aren't friends, exactly the opposite, I consider it to be my enemy, still I entertain it at the worst times.

For instance: my children insist on waking me at the same time every morning. 4:30... what is significant about this time I'm not sure, but for about the past week and a half 4:30 it is. Sugar Mama yesterday morning because she thought her panties were wet, The Nugget this morning because she couldn't find monkey and she was cold... as soon as my eyes pop open, I think instantly, of all the things I need to do. Bills, homework, baby preparation, etc. I can't go back to sleep until about 5:45 only to be startled by the alarm that I know is going to go off at 6:00.

Now I'm awake for the second time in a day, not exactly happy, more like resigned to just accept the inevitable and I get up to start my day.. the stress doesn't leave, instead reappearing later in the day..

So today on the way home from Dance, where I studied self-made flashcards for a test I have today, I heard this song. The Perry's.. they are a country band, and they have a great song. I must admit that the song doesn't make a lot of sense to me. I get the gist of it, but the lyrics sort of lose me. Either way on my way home, listening to this song, I sort of burst into tears. Not sobbing but enough to choke me up and make me pause. The stress had left for just a minute and instead of focusing on everything I have not accomplished yet I was reminded of things I tend to forget:

1. I'm here... I could not be.
2. My little tater tot is growing like she should be, I'm not typing this blog about something entirely different.
3. I have accomplished some things today.. maybe not everything I wanted but I had the opportunity to get things done and it could be worse.
4. Most importantly: since the stress and I aren't friends, I won't have a hard time kicking it to the curb.. really it has a control on my life right now that I'm simply not comfortable with. And why should it? I'm not in control of anything that happens in this life. The things for this baby will get done the same way the were done for the two before her. School will be over in a matter of weeks and it will be time to move on. Bills will get paid and my hubs has a job, those are important things.

So I bid a farewell to the stress. It will come back, knock on my door, look through my windows to see if I'm home and simply hiding (I will be), and leave a "Sorry I missed you note", but I think I'll let it visit somewhere new for now.

Today I am Thankful for:


The Expecting/New Mother parking that was left open just for me at my Kroger, and for the fact that I found a pair of pants that fit again today. I wonder constantly when the day will come that my regular pants will no longer be an option.. my ban on maternity clothes is hanging on strong.. but I may need to concede soon.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Overload....

I've decided to add all the pictures I've promised over the past few weeks in one post :)

The girl's bathroom finished :)


Gender Party: Team Pink


Team Blue


Mama J chomping in to find out...

Team Pink Won :)


Nugget girl all ready to go to dance class.


Proof of good parenting ;)


And last but not least... Putting Nugget girl into a big girl (toddler bed).

Saying goodbye to our crib. This made me cry really hard. I've been talking about moving her for a while so she's not resentful towards baby number three, but actually doing it made me very sad.


Moving our mattress...


Moving the Most Important: Puppy and Monkey...


Finally going to sleep. She begged to just go night night with Tinkerbell :)


Nugget girl you did beautifully. You were so tired and not feeling so well so you went and laid straight in the bed. We said your prayers and you asked me to turn the light out and went straight to sleep. Your being such a big girl, made me cry even more because I am so proud of what a big girl you really are. I love you so much!!

Today I am Thankful for:

More than I could post here, but to name a few.. that Nugget girl has been so wonderful with all the changes headed her way. Also having my family and not taking that for granted. If you read Kelly's Korner then you've heard of the family that lost both their twin babies and their wife/mom. Life is so hard sometimes, I am eternally grateful God stays with us always.