Thursday, October 28, 2010

My Husband Is a Genius..

I mean that with no hint of sarcasm :)

I've posted previously about the stress I have concerning preparing for this new baby.
1. I needed to move Nugget girl to a "big girl" toddler bed. (check)
2. Combine Sugar Mama and Nugget Girl's rooms... I had a hard time with this because I needed to find a twin or 2 twin beds. I was going to go with one twin bed for now since we just moved Nugget girl out of the crib, it didn't seem fair to move her straight into another bed. So last night we have conversation number 4, 286 about how we're going to do it, with enough time to let them adjust and still prepare for the baby.

Let me back up a little. I've noticed over the past week or so that Nugget girl must do and/or say anything that Sugar Mama does. For instance, last night Nugget girl saw me going into Sugar Mama's room. She thought we were letting her stay up. When going to bed she pitched a nasty fit, screaming and crying. It took me back to sleep training, her response was never like that, but it's what I felt like with the crying. Daddy went into save the day.
Nugget girl says "mommy all gone, take earrings".. about a month back she broke her earrings. I haven't found anymore yet because her ears are very sensitive and break out easily.
Sugar Mama started wearing different earrings this week... Nugget must wear new earrings also.

So back to conversation 4, 286.. the hubs said maybe we should just put them in the same room so Nugget understands Sugar Mama is going to sleep too. This sounded wonderful, but I still had not solved the bed issue.
The hubs says "Why don't we just keep Sugar Mama's bed as it is now, turn it like we would have the twin bed, and put Nugget's toddler bed in there too?"

Hello, almost college educated and it never occurred to me. DUH! So this morning as we were getting ready for school he moved the furniture around and the girls were thrilled.

Side Note: I love how it is, but their bedding does not match and it looks a little cluttered, this is not my favorite :) It's the OCD.. don't start to want to poke me with a stick when I've finally found a solution, I'm just letting you know when I show you pictures later, that more work has to be done :)

So I worried about how nap time would go and I project my worries onto my children. I thought Nugget girl would be thrown for a loop, turns out she adjusts much better than I do.
I put her in "their" room and she did great. Sugar Mama is already asking if they can share a bed. God is good, all the time. He always finds a way and shows us when it's time that works best for everyone.

I shouldn't worry so much, that's a given, but when I do God gave me a great husband that sees the trees through the forest.

Today I am Thankful for:

My husband: he is amazing, brilliant, generous, everything I should have wanted in a husband, and was to naive to want, but blessed enough to receive :)

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Be Relevant...

This is the one place that is mine. My words are typed in this box, and some day I hope to reflect back on them with laughter and joy because those times are behind me, replaced by new and refreshing chaos. I am uninterrupted here, no one calling "Mommy" or attempting to understand what it is I am trying to say... just me and how I feel, and how those feelings relate to my life.

So here comes some honesty: I'm barely here... I have never experienced this level of irritation and frustration on daily basis in my entire adult life. After talking about stress, I prayed about it and left it behind. It knocked, rang the door bell, lingered on my porch and visits me daily. Sometimes at 1:30 a.m. when I can better spend the time sleeping... either way I'm barely here, and the barely is irritated and frustrated.

I'm going to blame it on the hormones :) and assure myself that in a couple of months I will be back to normal. See, doesn't that feel better?

So I'm barely here... I'm sharing pictures of my family, our new baby in utero, everything but what I intended this blog to be. So let's start over.
I'm Lively Situation
I'm a follower of Jesus Christ
I have a great family, a husband, 2 1/4 daughters, and one neurotic bulldog
This place is mine, to stand, and share.. let's do that.

I need to be relevant. I struggle with sharing my faith because it's a little hard to do from my home. My interaction with adults is either at school where I sit in lecture or lab, or at church where we're all sharing our faith. I read something today in the back of my bible that struck home for me. For the 17 of you who read this blog, I won't see you everyday. I can barely scrape the time and effort together to blog once a week now (which is a big source of guilt), so I won't share with you everyday, but I will share my faith, my story, my God with my children.. everyday. In my actions, my words, my works, my love, the list goes on and on.

Deuteronomy 6: 5 - 6
Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children.

I won't share with you everyday, but he that lives in me will be seen here, when I make it :) but the peace I get from knowing that he will be shining from my heart to the hearts of the three wonderful little girls he's given me is enough to make up for the guilt.

I'm relevant... to Sugar Mama, Nugget Girl, and Tater Tot... For now it has to be enough.

So here is my first step.. to being here again.

Today I am Thankful for:

A place... not just any place, but this place. Where his love grows, and is shared, one heart at a time

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Pickles...

That's not a particular craving, but I've eaten one almost every day of the week with a sandwich :)

I've been absent for longer than intended again, and not because I have a shortage of things to write about, but because I feel like everything continues to spin out of my control. Blogging in the last on the list. Although I should put my thoughts here to give me an outlet to the stress I insist on inviting in my life. The stress and I aren't friends, exactly the opposite, I consider it to be my enemy, still I entertain it at the worst times.

For instance: my children insist on waking me at the same time every morning. 4:30... what is significant about this time I'm not sure, but for about the past week and a half 4:30 it is. Sugar Mama yesterday morning because she thought her panties were wet, The Nugget this morning because she couldn't find monkey and she was cold... as soon as my eyes pop open, I think instantly, of all the things I need to do. Bills, homework, baby preparation, etc. I can't go back to sleep until about 5:45 only to be startled by the alarm that I know is going to go off at 6:00.

Now I'm awake for the second time in a day, not exactly happy, more like resigned to just accept the inevitable and I get up to start my day.. the stress doesn't leave, instead reappearing later in the day..

So today on the way home from Dance, where I studied self-made flashcards for a test I have today, I heard this song. The Perry's.. they are a country band, and they have a great song. I must admit that the song doesn't make a lot of sense to me. I get the gist of it, but the lyrics sort of lose me. Either way on my way home, listening to this song, I sort of burst into tears. Not sobbing but enough to choke me up and make me pause. The stress had left for just a minute and instead of focusing on everything I have not accomplished yet I was reminded of things I tend to forget:

1. I'm here... I could not be.
2. My little tater tot is growing like she should be, I'm not typing this blog about something entirely different.
3. I have accomplished some things today.. maybe not everything I wanted but I had the opportunity to get things done and it could be worse.
4. Most importantly: since the stress and I aren't friends, I won't have a hard time kicking it to the curb.. really it has a control on my life right now that I'm simply not comfortable with. And why should it? I'm not in control of anything that happens in this life. The things for this baby will get done the same way the were done for the two before her. School will be over in a matter of weeks and it will be time to move on. Bills will get paid and my hubs has a job, those are important things.

So I bid a farewell to the stress. It will come back, knock on my door, look through my windows to see if I'm home and simply hiding (I will be), and leave a "Sorry I missed you note", but I think I'll let it visit somewhere new for now.

Today I am Thankful for:


The Expecting/New Mother parking that was left open just for me at my Kroger, and for the fact that I found a pair of pants that fit again today. I wonder constantly when the day will come that my regular pants will no longer be an option.. my ban on maternity clothes is hanging on strong.. but I may need to concede soon.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Overload....

I've decided to add all the pictures I've promised over the past few weeks in one post :)

The girl's bathroom finished :)


Gender Party: Team Pink


Team Blue


Mama J chomping in to find out...

Team Pink Won :)


Nugget girl all ready to go to dance class.


Proof of good parenting ;)


And last but not least... Putting Nugget girl into a big girl (toddler bed).

Saying goodbye to our crib. This made me cry really hard. I've been talking about moving her for a while so she's not resentful towards baby number three, but actually doing it made me very sad.


Moving our mattress...


Moving the Most Important: Puppy and Monkey...


Finally going to sleep. She begged to just go night night with Tinkerbell :)


Nugget girl you did beautifully. You were so tired and not feeling so well so you went and laid straight in the bed. We said your prayers and you asked me to turn the light out and went straight to sleep. Your being such a big girl, made me cry even more because I am so proud of what a big girl you really are. I love you so much!!

Today I am Thankful for:

More than I could post here, but to name a few.. that Nugget girl has been so wonderful with all the changes headed her way. Also having my family and not taking that for granted. If you read Kelly's Korner then you've heard of the family that lost both their twin babies and their wife/mom. Life is so hard sometimes, I am eternally grateful God stays with us always.