Saturday, December 31, 2011

Happy 2012..

In a few short hours we will leave 2011 behind.. going straight into 2012.  

I say.. Good Riddance.  

This has not been my year.. for so many reasons but first I want to list the things I am thankful for in 2011:

1. My sweet butterball turkey.  She is so much fun, and such a complete mix of her sisters that she is constantly making me work and laugh simultaneously.  She has been a great addition to our family.

2. 7 years of marriage.  I've always heard of the seven year itch and we officially made it through it.  This has been the hardest year of our marriage so far.  Between his work schedule and having 3 kids to myself there were times I wondered where our lives were going.
We're moving to year 8 and I'm thankful for that.

3. Vacation time: We spent time with Grandma and Grandpa, I got to visit my brother at his graduation and we went to the most magical place on earth.  We normally don't get one.. I got three :)

4. My discipleship group.  It's important to have women you can talk to on a spiritual level and they are some of the best women I know; I love all of them.

For 2012: 

I want to live a different life.  I am complacent in a lot of areas and I'm hoping God sees fit to change that.  I want to make a great impact.  Love deeper and more freely, even if I'm tired and unsure if I have it left.  I want to give.. freely and abundantly.  I pray God gives me the direction for that giving.  I want to continue the 30 x 30.  I want to turn 30 and not feel as though the years are slipping by... I want to continue to show my 3 sweet girls that love, honesty, kindness is where it's at and God is where you can find it.  I want to spend more time in meditation, prayer, and studying.  

In short I wish you a Happy and Blessed New Year.  I hope you have had many wonderful things to be thankful for and that 2012 brings you many blessings and great happiness. 

Today I am Thankful for: 
The ability to see the old year go.. and recall the good/bad things that happened.. so I could rejoice and be thankful.  And a new year that rolls around.  God keeps our lives going forward and it's a blessing to see the next sunrise he provides.  

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Am I Normal?....

Do you do things that make you wonder if there are people out there who do the same things... like "Does insisting that the toilet paper roll go over make me normal?"

So here's my list of things that make me think: 

1. I never let my children wear the same pajamas twice.  The get up and get dressed and then I put their  jammies in the laundry room.  So every week I wash 21 pairs of pajamas.  I'm not sure why because I am clean when I go to bed so I'll wear my pajamas for a couple of days in a row.. but not my children.. is this normal?  Or is my child situation normal and my own not?

2. Sometimes, not very often so don't call the loony bin, but sometimes I get so sad that I cannot keep my children this small.  Just the other night as I was putting our sweet little Butterball turkey to bed, I was saying her prayers.  I love this time because she nuzzles her little face in my neck while we pray.  She is so small that she fits so well there and is just long enough for my torso.  In that moment I thought "Ugh, how has she grown up so much so quickly" and for about 2 hours it made me really sad...

3.  I save greeting cards.  From Birthdays, Anniversaries, Mother's Day, and I am not really sure why... but I do and always have.  

4. Every week I wash my laundry in the exact same order: All 3 girls because they require the most folding and hanging, then whites because that's where all of the under shirts (blah) and sock matching happens (blah blah), then our clothes because mostly they are hanging up and are easy to manage, and lastly towels - super easy to fold and put away.

5.  A lot of women around me are pregnant right now, and that makes me just a little bit envious.  I don't want to have another baby any time soon, or maybe ever, but I so miss that exciting fun part of having a baby.. finding out your pregnant, finding out what you're having, and actually having a baby.. just such a sweet time :)

6. I really must insist that the toilet paper go over :)

7.  Sometimes I get anxious that people are angry with me for no reason.  It's random but I do, and then I can't figure out why they are fake mad at me :/

8. I wish I had an English accent and spoke as properly as those who actually do.  I love proper grammar and constantly correct my children.  Even Nugget girl who cannot, in any way, be formed into submission <--- that's a 100% true story.

9. I love the movie teen witch.  Most of you are probably wondering what that movie is even about, BUT the leading ladies last name was... wait for it... Lively!! And in the movie she had a necklace that had magical powers.. when I was like 10 I wanted a necklace just like that.  I got a bubble necklace once, that's just a shoe string with a heart shaped plastic container that held bubbles.  I remember passing by a Chuckie Cheese and rubbing the necklace like I saw in Teen Witch and asking that my mom take us to Chuckie Cheese... obviously her necklace's powers were greater than mine.. <--- seriously a 100% true story. 

10. I am a little disturbed about turning 30.  I can't put my finger on it, but something about not being in my 20's is freaking me out.  When I was 19 I felt like such a grown up turning 20... now I feel like I'm slowly turning into that age that is "old" for teenagers.. How did this happen?  Am I normal?

So there you have it... just a few things that make me wonder if there are others of you out there thinking the same thing.. If you are great.. if you're normal and you're not.. well let's just keep that to your self shall we :)

Today I am Thankful for: 
The ability to be normal or not, and still be awesome :)

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Merry Christmas 2011

From Us to You, Wishing you a very Merry Christmas, Love, Lively Situation.

And may you remember, never forget, and experience, the true reason for the season.

Luke 2: 10 & 11

And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.
For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.  

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Pink Eye, Double Ear Infection, No School... Oh My!

On Saturday Nugget girl woke up with some sleep glued to her eye lashes.  No big deal... until we went to get our Christmas tree and I noticed that she was officially crying sleep from her eyes.  My eyes are watering now just thinking of it :/

I should have known it was coming.  All last week she was very sleepy, cranky, and stubborn.  The cranky/stubborn is normal but the sleepy not so much.  She is almost 4 and this is the first time she has ever really been sick.  But last week before dance this was what was happening in our car...

At first I thought she was reaching for something and then I realized she was not coming back up.  She was knocked out.  She later made a rather large scene at dance class :/ Red Flag number 2...

So we stayed at home all weekend and finally decorated for Christmas.  Our girls have had Christmas trees of their own since Sugar Mama was about 2.  They use all of the ornaments that do not go on the big tree.  Some have been in our family since I was kid, some they have made in school, and some were purchased just for their trees.  They love decorating their own trees because they can control how it looks and I get to look back at all of the ornaments from years past.  

Here is Butterball Turkey.  Doesn't it appear that while the two older girls were decorating their trees, she was reading quietly in her own room?  Yeah let's go with that :)  
Truth: She was tearing ornaments off, breaking some, eating others...
We'll call her Nugget Girl Junior :)

We're on day 3 of the quarantine and Nugget girl is miserable.  She literally has the worst pink eye I have ever seen and apparently has a double ear infection.  One hour, $40 later we had 3 types of meds to clear up this mess.  

Have you ever tried to give a 3 year old eye drops?  If not consider yourself lucky because you'll have to bring the big guns.

Today I am Thankful for: 
Sweet nuzzles from my sweet girl.  Nugget girl is miserable and only mommy's love can comfort her.  Secretly I love this!!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

In His Likeness...

This unfortunate soul, the one sporting the N*SYNC t-shirt with pride, is ME!!  This was so many years ago.. let's see I was a junior in high school, so that makes it... 13 years ago.  (sigh)

Oh, I was so skinny then.  I cheered, 6 days a week, 2 hours a day.. tumbled, conditioned a lot.  That was before I had a husband, or kids, or a glimpse into the real world.  I don't miss that time, but I sure do miss that number on the scale.

I look at those times and think if I could take ONE thing and bring it to the present the body I had then would so be it.

This is me now.  I've been married for almost 8 years, I've had 3 children in the past 6 years,  and I've stayed at home with all 3.  When I go to the doctor I am sad to admit that I have to answer no when they ask me if I exercise.  Well, until recently.. I've lost 6 pounds since I wrote the 30 x 30 list.  I struggle with self esteem issues with my weight EVERY DAY.  

Today I sat and listened to my pastor talk about looking in the mirror and recognizing that life was at it's happiest when the world depended, trusted in God for everything.  When our relationship with him was more than enough.  I, You, We were made in his image and when I focus on anything other than my relationship with him as he sees me, then I cheat my relationship with him.

This is not to say that when I wake up tomorrow I will be excited that I have not lost the baby weight from Sugar Mama.. or the weight I originally lost before Butterball Turkey was born.. but it did remind me that my life will be so much better, happier, more peaceful, less insecure when I remember that life is at it's best when I focus on him and look to him to pave the way for my self image.  

It's pretty special to be modeled after the savior of the world...

Today I am Thankful for: 

A true reflection.  I can look into the mirror and see what I want to see, good or bad.. but because of his gift I can also see his light shining and that's worth being thankful for.